UPDATE: 08/29/04
The shunt material was still on backorder, so on Wednesday
the 25th we brought Koa back from Dallas. The medication
should have been making her feel better, but it was
not relieving the pressure in her brain. This was a
preview of how successful the surgery would be, and
it wasn't helping. In fact, her condition was deteriorating.
On Thursday night, Koa's foster mom Barbara wrote this:
Koa
When the summer breeze blows, I do not feel it.
When the gentle rain, falls softly against the window
pane,
I do not hear it.
When someone calls my name, I cannot respond.
I live in a world, that to most does not exist.
I cannot see, nor feel, nor hear, nor taste.
My whole being, disappears inside itself.
Why do I live? I wish I could show you,
all of the things I am on the inside.
I want to grab a hold of life and live it to the fullest.
Yet, I cannot.
I wish I had known you.
As I wish you had known me.
I am here, and yet I am not,
I wish it had been easier.
There's a lot of me that is never going be heard.
I do not hear you, nor do you hear me.
I cannot answer any of your questions.
I have no one inside here to teach me.
I reach to touch and there's nothing there,
except your love.
Can your love save me?
Can your love pull me from this darkness?
Can your love make me whole?
Can your love turn back the hands of time?
I am dying, and yet I live.
Is it fair?
It is very hard to admit defeat.
But could it be time to gently kiss me, and say good
bye.
Who has that answer, I wish I knew.
It was clear that she was now suffering, so on Friday
we made that very difficult decision to let her go.
When it was over, both Barbara and I were struck by
the fact that we had never seen her so peaceful.
This has been one of the most emotional roller coaster
rides I have ever taken in my days of rescue. But the
outpouring of support we have received has been phenomenal.
Koa's story touched so many lives, and we thank each
and every one of you for all you have done for her.
 Rainbow
Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to
someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends
so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our
friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored
to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are
made whole and strong again, just as we remember them
in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small
thing; they each miss someone very special to them,
who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when
one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.
His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers.
Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over
the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special
friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion,
never to be parted again.
The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again
caress the beloved head, and you look once more into
the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your
life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....
Author unknown...
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